Sunday, March 28, 2010

Today

My children are making me laugh today.  I am watching them sing and dance and talk and laugh and my heart is swelling.  They are at such fun ages.  Everything in our life is Exciting.  Adventurous. New. Thrilling. A Learning Experience.  

Oh, how I frustrate myself when my agenda and our to-do list becomes more important than this.

Confession: the only time I really get frustrated with my children is when I have an agenda.  I have something in mind, something to do and their actions are hindering ME from accomplishing what I need to do, get where I need to get, take the picture that I want to take, etc, etc, etc.  MY agenda. MY timeframe. MY needs. MY schedule. MY expectations of the ways something should happen.  And the result... MY frustration.  At those times I am forced, once again, to stare my selfishness straight in the face.  Thankfully the Lord has given me eyes to recognize this and see it for what it really is.  Typically, I am capable of stepping back from the situation and acknowledging the reasoning for my frustrations.  I can always trace it back to the root: my children's actions are not aligning with my agenda.  Thank you, Jesus for having compassion on me... a selfish child.  Confession over.

Right now we are enjoying the fun, exciting, adventurous, new, thrilling, learning experience that we call today!  Thank you, Jesus, for a new day... for TODAY!



8 comments:

Anonymous said...

This very issue has been laying on my heart also. God has shown this to me this week also. I get wrapped up in needing to go and do and get frustrated when they do not do exactly as I would like. Instead I need to remember what precious joys they are in my life, have fun laughing and playing with them, not stressing the small stuff. If we do not follow the agenda as I have planned, no big deal!! So glad I am not the only one who has struggled with this, and thankful for Jesus opening my eyes to this!!

Jourdan Mullin

Mary Katherine said...

wow-it amazes me how God has you blog about something that I need to hear! This is so true & there are times I am so good about just being with my kids then Satan puts "things" on MY agenda & I find my self not being the mom or wife I want to be! Thank you for writing this & may all of us play, laugh, & love our kids today & everyday!

Renae said...

Whoa-this hit home for me. Thank you for writing this it has made me look at myself and do some examing. LIVE LAUGH LOVE

Sarah said...

SO TRUE, great post! You are so right, MY to-do list is what truly makes me impatient with Saylor.

Also, I'll try to think of more fun things to do here. There is a Live Science Museum that I think Noah would enjoy--not sure about Kayt. (I haven't actually been, just going off of what people have told me). There's always the water park which is fun. But, maybe plan on coming at the beginning or end of the summer. The zoo in the middle of the hot, VERY HUMID heat is almost torture. The humidity here really makes such a difference. OKC is a nice distance for a short little getaway!

Amber said...

Glad to know I'm not the only one! Thanks for sharing. I needed this!

Tiffany said...

Something we all needed to hear. It's heart breaking to admit, but, this is true for me too. I'm just glad our Lord is not only faithful in helping us in our parenting, but, gentle and merciful, as He teaches us. Thank you for your transparency here. It is helpful just to know you're not the only one. :)

Lauren said...

Ashley-Thank you for being so transparent and honest. I find myself struggling with the same thing- I am thankful for a Gracious God who allows us to recognize the sin beneath the sin.
You are a wonderful mom, your 3 sweet children are so blessed!

The Blowey Bunch said...

its true the only times I am frustrated is when they dont allign with my selfishness... pretty revealing huh!?